BRAVING THE RELAUNCH

My late wife, Desreen, was very funny. She had a completely different take on the world to anyone else I’ve ever met. For instance, after she’d given birth to our son she never really spoke negatively about wanting to lose weight or build back the stomach muscles that were cut open during her emergency caesarean. […]

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SUPPORTING THE ‘OTHER’ SIDE

Growing up in a predominantly white, middle class town in the north of England, I never really spent much time – aside from my own childhood insecurities – thinking about how it must feel to be ‘other’. That changed nine years ago when my mixed race son was born. In the early months and years, […]

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BE THE THINGS YOU LOVED MOST ABOUT THE PEOPLE WHO ARE GONE

It would have been my late wife’s 40th birthday today. Last night I shared a post about her on Instagram, based loosely on the eulogy I gave at her funeral almost seven years ago. The message was simple: remember her this weekend by doing something she would have done (even if you never had the […]

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FROM HARDSHIP TO JOY: WHEN CHAT CHANGES EVERYTHING

I spent the day with one of my best friends at his new house in Cheshire on Saturday. We first met at high school and have since been through pretty much every high and low in life together. When we get together we can – and we do – talk for hours and hours. It’s […]

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LIFE BEGINS AGAIN AT 40

Well that was my thirties. Beautiful, fun, life-changing, hideous, painful, purposeful and completely unexpected in almost every way imaginable. I document things so that I don’t forget, so that my son might understand things for himself one day, and perhaps because I regret not preserving more of what we had together when we started our […]

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AQUAMAN: A HERO FOR MIXED RACE KIDS

I’ve been putting off watching Aquaman. Actually, that’s not quite true – I’ve been avoiding it. I don’t watch that many movies, I only binge on television every so often, and I usually decide that superhero films are bullshit before I give them a chance (save Batman, obviously). Also, after watching every single episode of […]

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GOODNIGHT GRATEFUL

Do you ever get to the end of a day and wonder how on earth you did it? If so then congratulations, because I think it may be a sign of a much happier state of mind than if you find yourself asking why you even bothered. Today has been one of those days for […]

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EVERYDAY OVERACHIEVEMENT (AKA THE ART OF DOING LOTS OF THINGS BADLY)

I get distracted easily. Actually, that’s not strictly true; I tend to get intensely busy with several things at the same time easily. When I’m doing a chore, such as cleaning the dishes, I’ll remember that I need to hang out the washing and I’ll start doing that as well so that I don’t forget. […]

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WHAT THE HELL HAPPENED TO YOU?

Before I got married in 2011, my wife-to-be and I braved a really intense detoxifying programme called ‘Clean’. At the time, she read the words of Gwyneth Paltrow as gospel. This saw me – the one who did all the cooking in our home – up early making my own almond milk (literally) and packing […]

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I’M SORRY I’M TALKING SO MUCH BUT I DON’T CARE. MY SON, JACKSON BROOKS-DUTTON, AGED 8

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THINGS I LOVE

My son woke me up this Father’s Day with an unexpected poke in the back and an unexpected selection of gifts and a card he had made himself. It seems he had been squirrelling things away for me. When I opened the old shoe box wrapped with string I found an eclectic mix of things […]

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FATHER’S DAY THANKS

On our way to school earlier this week, I started joking around with my son like I do most days. ‘I can’t wait to find out what you’ve got me for Father’s Day,’ I told Jackson. ‘When’s Father’s Day?’ he replied. ‘Oh wow, you’re good,’ I smiled. ‘But I know the truth. I know you’ve […]

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